I am sick of people. I am sick of people saying I have a choice. Saying they want me to choose. And meaning that they want me to choose what they want me to choose. They say it is my decision, but it's really not. It's theirs. If I do what they want me to do and I like it they will say I told you so. If I do what they don't want me to do and I don't like it they will say I told you so. If I do what they want and I am unhappy they say it's for the best anyway. If I do what they don't want and I am happy they act like I hae somehow hurt them. And then they pretend to not feel hurt.
My throat is raw like I just ate a pepperoni sandwich and didn't have enough to wash it down with. Which is kind of funny because I did.
Coming back to what I should actually be thinking about instead of ignoring like a giant sore. I think my mother is the only person who really said what I wanted. I also know that she would be so mad if I quit. Why can't I just let some other person have my crappy old flute. I should give it to Hanson's kid. Sigh. I am definitely going to be in chorus though. Definitely. Also definitely going to be in Colored Film. Definitely.